Holiday season is in full swing. Carols are being sung, trees are being decorated and all of the children are writing lists and sending them in for Santa. On my way to work this morning I heard the song “My Grown Up Christmas List, ” by Kelly Clarkson, and let me tell you, it really hit home.
It is so true that the most important things can’t be purchased from any department store and Santa Claus can’t leave them under the Christmas tree.
But what are those things for you?
For me, my grown up Christmas list is simple; a happy child, a heart full of love and a comfortable life round out the top three on my list.
I suppose I could get a little greedy or selfish and ask for a winning lottery ticket or a new wardrobe, but I’m neither selfish nor greedy; those are two adjectives that just aren’t who I am.
I’m having a hard time finding the Christmas spirit this year. Maybe that’s what I should ask Santa for, confidence and reassurance that things are going to be OK. Things aren’t going to be so full of dread. The world is in a scary state; the ends aren’t meeting and I just can’t seem to smile much these days. I want so much to create the perfect holiday for the ones who I love most but all of the stress and worrying makes it seem like things are just blowing up in my face.
I’m at a precipice and this holiday might just push me over the edge.
So Santa, if you’re reading this, for Christmas this year I want the ones I love to be happy and if you could find my sanity and Christmas spirit, please leave it under the Christmas tree. I’ve really tried to be a good girl this year.
Girl Talk began in 2012 as a telltale horror story of the city’s most epic dating disasters and has evolved into a column about love, life experiences and growing up. Melissa also has a weekly Girl Talk TV segment on PA Live and WBRE.