There are few things in life scarier than taking a leap of faith. Whether this is in your love life, career or circle of friends, just pushing out beyond your comfort zone and not knowing what is next causes so many people to just stay in a stagnant situation, even if it’s a bad one.
I have recently found my life at a precipice. Everything around me was whirling in change and I had to decide whether I was going to be left behind or roll with it. I have been in a pretty stable situation for a while and am truthfully I am not a big fan of change. When push came to shove, I had to learn to let go.
My full time job is relocating out of the area and this has left me scrambling with a slew of decisions to make. Do I commute? Do I find something new? Am I ready to start over again? In truth, at my current job I worked my way from a temp to an executive in the span of five years. I love my job. I thought this was the place I would eventually retire from. Then life happened.
That’s the thing about life, once you think you have it all figured out, it sweeps in and pulls the rug out from under you, what a salty bitch.
So I went out and found something new and just put in my two-week notice at my job. I am terrified. I know that it’s the right decision for me, so why can’t I get comfortable in the fact that I made it?
At the same time that all of this has been happening, I have been evaluating a lot of the relationships in which I have found myself lately. When it rains it pours, right? My timing has never been awesome.
There have been a lot of fake friends in my circle and the real ones had been placed on a back burner for various reasons. I tried trimming the fat which has left me virtually alone.
I should be happy that I am removing the toxic people from my life, but instead I feel like I am left scrambling and alone. It’s not a good feeling. Finding out how many “real” people you have in your corner can be a big shock to your system. I am coping I guess, but I have never felt so truly alone in my life.
I also decided this was the perfect time to buy a house. You know, I didn’t have enough on my plate.
So I am throwing my faith to the wind.
I am taking the leap; new home, new job, new friendship circle, new Melissa.
I’ll let you know when I land at the bottom. If my cat-like reflexes kick in and I end up on my feet again, or, if I fall flat on my face, it’s sure to be a wild ride either way.
Girl Talk began in 2012 as a telltale horror story of the city’s most epic dating disasters and has evolved into a column about love, life experiences and growing up. Melissa also has a weekly Girl Talk TV segment on PA Live, WBRE, and a radio segment every Wednesday on 98.5 KRZ.